I’m getting ready to leap into an unknown territory. Ready to use all my knowledge and experience to make meaningful positive change in the life of one special family.
I do not believe in higher power, but life keeps presenting me with proof that unrelated events can create a brand new path. So I thank the Universe for the opportunity to grow beyond my wildest dreams in the past four years. I still underestimate my abilities and the term self confidence in my case is more along the lines of “fake it till you make it” rather than assertive display of my knowledge and abilities. But I guess that even the faking it requires the first step, the faithful leap into the brand new world.
This year have been a brand new territory for the entire world. Let’s just say humans did not surprise me, since I’m already rather disillusioned, you get that way by having a child with complex needs, it’s given. I had to stop watching news, we lost therapies, months of worth, we lost our grip. The world has forced me to pause and in this pause I was able to reconnect, to step out of the endless hamster wheel. I realized how much time we have spent on therapies that provided very little positive change. I became angrier than ever about the way my country’s leaders were treating the disabled community in the time of crisis. I had time to re evaluate the direction in which we are moving. I’m aware that the direction of my journey has shifted away from the previous one again. The road junction that appeared in March has offered me a choice. I do not know if I took “the right road”, but for the very first time in many years I like the scenery where the road travels. It is not because the countryside is nicer, it’s because hope has placed rose tinted lenses in my glasses…I will savor looking through them until I trip over the numerous pot holes in this road and my glasses will fly off my face and break. But maybe by then I won’t be needing them, because I will know how to find beauty in the strange landscape I was destined to travel through.
ktojoy 