Oh the things I would do…

It must be my personality or the copious amounts of coffee I go through these days. One or the other I just can’t sit still. All the Easter decorations I had planned never materialized, but instead I found different, even cooler ones. I ventured onto one of my favorites blogs and found a cool idea that even Sara can do. Then my husband comes home and shows me another of those “how could we have managed without it” apps that allows you to make a step by step instructions. So project is underway 😉
Long list of household tasks is looking at me and I’d rather sit here and muse…
My weekend job is slowly coming to an end, only four more weekends of this torture. I swear every Saturday when I f… Sit in my cubicle it’s sunny outside and then it rains the rest of the week. It really rubs me the wrong way, since I am so sick of the bad and very cold weather we have been experiencing lately. Nothing is going on in the garden, I haven’t sown the peas either, just some Nasturniums are starting on my window sill.
One positive thing was the window cleaners came to our house and I washed all my windows on the inside, so I had about two hours of clear view today. It is supposed to rain again tomorrow… typical.
No more talk action needs to speak now, hmmm kitchen clean up or ironing? So many choices ;))))

The birth of a soccer mom
Here is my little big girl on Monday April 2nd, 2012
She walked onto the field, explored the artificial turf and grew at least two inches taller when I put her new jersey on and the head coach handed her her very first soccer ball. Her first concern was how come there is no number on her jersey. I explained that this is a training one, that when she joins the team for regular season she will play games and have a jersey with a number on it.
Her second concern was… I want to win
Well she is our daughter after all, so our challenge will be to steer this determination and put it into use in a good way. Good luck to us
Sara was shy for the first half of the practice, but after she was running like a wind making sure to be first everywhere :)))) we have a funny video to prove that, will it go do in history? Who knows, it would be great if she is really good in something, but if I can choose to have a famous child or a happy one, I will always choose happy.
I haven’t seen her this happy for a long time, she was chatting in the car and when I told her that I will sign her up for the summer camp as well so she can play games in the fall she could just jump out of the car seat. Talking about the car seat, it’s so strange to see your child to go from a baby to first soccer practice where she can follow the coach and run faster than the five year olds in her group ( she is definitely the tiniest one in her group and I suspect she is the youngest one as well). She walked onto the field and I only saw this tiny baby of mine in the huge jersey. She walked off as a child, confident and happy. She opened the car door, took off her cleats and climbed into her car seat. Suddenly the was a big girl sitting in this baby car seat and I was hit with the thought of “oh my four years later is now”. I must say I love the fours, Sara has grown into this joke maker who is always on the go, singing funny songs.

Let’s hope the spring is here. Sara had her first swimming lesson on Friday, she did quite well. On the way home she announced she really likes her swimming teacher, but she will like her soccer coach better. I hope she is not going to loose it because of rain or something. So far she loves her soccer shoes, but every time she kicks she checks if her cleats are dirty. She is quite like I was, according to my mom ;))))
Easter is here next weekend, only four weekends left of my office job, fantastic. I need to get on making the decoration for the house. Easter might pass without any decoration if I’m this fast ;))

Learning

So the long awaited toy is here. Now the Mac learning curve begins. For starters I’m no typer, but this virtual keyboard is quite fun and surprisingly fast to type on. The clarity of the display is just amazing, actually it’s too good, because it shows how sh… My photos are 😉 I mean not sharp at all. I haven’t checked our vacation pics on this display yet, but I already tried couple tricks with the journal and I can tell it will be fun to finish the vacation journal on this toy.

Thinking in perspective

My husband commented on my previous post and praised my use of words. Strangely it got me thinking that I didn’t or couldn’t have this kind of pouring of my heart out conversation with him. It turns out that by reading my blog my husband can know what is going on inside my head, one might ask what happen to talking to each other 🙂 ? We do talk, but conversations tend to be filled with the everyday stuff, so we don’t go all philosophical on each other, for going deep I have my journal, aka blog. 

I haven’t been in touch with my fabric designers’ blogs lately, all preoccupied with the doll house. Today I popped in on Heather on http://www.heatherbailey.typepad.com/

and she got me thinking. In my new year’s post I promised myself post about Sara. In last few months she turned into a super cuddles and she loves when you rub her arm. As a baby she hated when you touched her hair, but now she lets me play with her hair a bit, which I love, her hair is so soft and fine.

She will be 3 and ¾ tomorrow 🙂 and I already have her birthday party half planned and all her presents are hiding in the garage. The doll house still needs a bit of work, but considering that I have 3 months to do it I’m in no hurry.

But back to what Heather was talking about. I have a huge box under my bed filled with Sara’s art work from school, most of them are sheer “products”, but she brought some tracing sheets home the other day and I realised that she truly is a preschooler. I know she works on her workbook at school with Miss Lindsay and she does her Montessori work with Miss Elizabeth. Her counting still sucks ;), her brain is not 4 yet for sure, I’m still waiting for the leap, for the light bulb to go off and she will get the quantitative properties of numbers, so far nada :)))

She is quite interested in human body. We have a bunch of books about how body works and she loves her ToCa BoCa doctor game. I try to explain as much as I can and she is really into it. Couple days ago she got a little paper cut on her finger and she ask J if it will affect her oxygen? How funny is that? She also makes sure she “gets her exercise” meaning she runs the laps in the house :))))

Heather wrote some “essays to my daughter”, I don’t think I want to go that far just yet, but looking back on my own mom I wish to know her better. Luckily I have the luxury of being able to ask her that very question. I would like to write down for my daughter (in case she never gets to ask) what makes me happy. There is no particular order to that list, so here we go

25 things that make me happy (2012)

1 sunshine 

2 cuddles with Sara

3 great meal that I cooked

4 my own freshly baked bread

5 digging in the dirt

6 admiring the results of work in the garden or my lovely flower planters

7 new shoes

8 bike rides

9 great music

10 vacations with my family

11 my iPhone and iPad 

12 making the doll house

13 clean counter top when I wake up in the morning

14 good coffee

15 letters from my mom

16 swimming in warm ocean

17 snorkeling

18 skiing

19 tidy house

20 ironing

21 ironed pillow case and freshly made bed

22 friends 

23 my husband

24 flower arangments

25 sleep

This is my today’s version of happiness list, what is on your list?

Strange times…

Last few days have been very trying and eye opening. 

While we are as happy as we can possibly be, other people’s lives crumble in front of our eyes. That leaves me with a strange feeling of having the duty to reach out, where I would possibly choose to stay out of it just a few weeks ago.

I don’t want to speak in code, so I will leave this topic alone.

I want to dedicate this post to mourning the loss of John. We had good times, we had falling apart times, all we are left with is wondering what would be if…

Ones life is a product of past experiences and interactions with all the random and less random people in our lives. Why is it we choose one path over another? I would love to know, then maybe I would know the secret of life itself.

Right now all I can offer is an “invisible hug”.

I feel a bit strange talking about my life and kitchen redecorating when person I knew was reduced to just memories, but life itself is strange, so I guess I just go on.

We took a little family day today and took Sara sledding on Cypress. I realized that  I managed to just be and enjoy the precious time with my wonderful family. I always rush and have the running schedule in my head, but for the very first time I just was, was there for my daughter (who might not appreciate it now, maybe one day) and for my amazing husband.

So so long John, rest in peace.

My first Christmas is over, second one coming soon…

A huge stack of boxes was waiting for us at The Palomino Estates 🙂

The furniture for Sara’s house is just so awesome, the chairs from CB2 are so well made. I was expecting some flimsy tree ornament, after all I paid $0.90 for each. But they are awesome and very sturdy, even ok for little hands. One problem arose thou, I built the house and didn’t really cared for the scale. Now that I bought real furniture made in the 1:12 scale, I can’t wait to put it in and see how it works out. I know already the bathroom is too small for all the furniture, so there is a possible extension of the floorspace. I still haven’t made the last wall so I might make a little nook for the fab free standing tub.

The front entry door is just neat, but I’ll have to built the frame, which means two wonderful new tools, little saw and a tiny mater saw guide. That means I can not only built perfect frames, but the table for the patio, oh my :))))

High on paint fumes, but happy about the sparkling white ceiling in my kitchen 🙂

I went a bit crazy and painted the window sills as well, must be the fumes.

Seven weeks to go at the office and my beautiful new toy is on it’s way, oh boy.