since my brain will inevitably bury all the memories under a layer of everyday worries I must preserve them elsewhere
Sara is four
Time flies, it turns all the raw emotions of today into nostalgic notions of past. I don’t want to look at Sara’s baby pictures today. I marvel at the fiery little lady she has become. I know we are constantly preoccupied if we a raising her right, but we won’t know for a long time.
I fear us doing a bad job, that is a somewhat guarantee we are doing a good job 😉
It’s the end of yet another work week, June is here. You wouldn’t tell by the weather outside. I need some sun for crying out loud and my garden too. Sara will be four in just two weeks. Her party is not in the final stages by any means. she would love to have a party with her little friends, but nobody replies to the invites. Since when did we all became so busy? I hate scheduling seeing my friends, but without it I would never see anybody. Planing is all I do, I swear. I try to simplify our life so we have at least some freedom to do things on a whim, but it’s getting harder. I might just pull out the calendar and fill in what we are doing each weekend this summer, how sick is that?
Oh well, I guess the achy body manifests itself in this grumpy post, but we all have the right to bitch from time to time 😉
I swear if I see one more video review of coffee makers I will take my half broken grinder and will chase my dear OCD husband around the house :)))))))
What to say? Music brings back memories, for some it is the taste or the smell, for me it is music. I still remember the first time my friend Marcela showed me the movie. I was 18, naive and sheltered by the iron curtain and my Mother’s love for pop ( and the Beatles). Pink Floyd had hit me like the proverbial wall. I had nightmares reliving the scenes of Bob Geldofs razor adventures. For couple years I would fall asleep to the sound of The Wall. The harsh sounds of the war machine were somehow soothing to me. Maybe because the album represents hope?
The wall is perceived as evil, but is it? We all have walls, without them we are vulnerable. The characters greatest punishment is the removal of his own wall for everybody to see him as he is, isnt that the greatest fear of us all? I want my wall, but I have to have the courage and energy to climb it on occasions as well.
Roger made sure to express his dislike for the Big Brother, but thanks to our government we could have had watched the show last night. I was amazed by the large amount of young hippies in the audience, so many people have cheered during his anti government speeches and I was just thinking; “all you sheltered middle class little sh…s who just need to find something to complain about in your life filled with first world problems, I wish you could have had the experience of living in a communist country."But thats just me,I have the right to be jaded, you earn it by immigrating and starting your life from the scratch in a country whos language is sometimes a complete mystery to you )
Roger also reminded us of being just another brick in the wall
But I want to be a brick, it means you belong, you are essential, you created something. The wall of my family is my life and I have no need to change it. Being part of the wall is OK, as long as you are aware of it.
When J and I heard the lyrics Day after day, love turns grey
Like the skin of a dying man.
Night after night, we pretend its all right
But I have grown older and
You have grown colder and
Nothing is very much fun any more
we reached for each others hand to say its OK
Our love had turn from bright carnival lights to pastels of a babies room and its fine with me, I can feel comfortably numb and still be happy.
So The Wall does this to me, too many words, too many questions that are still relevant after over twenty years, we have grown older, but we still have way too much fire left in us. So lets make something useful with it, like soup. :))))))
Barnston Island adventure
Today we ventured for the first time on a long ride with Sara on the tow bike.
Crossing the Golden Ears bridge was no biggie, but after it the bike path somehow disappeared. Half an hour later and three detours later we were on our way, Navigon and J’s amazing technology skills saved us. The tiny ferry ( barge pushed by a little tug boat) runs all the time and it took about two minutes to cross Fraser River. At the dock Sara had a first melt down, because she didn’t put her popcorn in J’s backpack. On the other side we entered another world. Beautiful views, eagles, and a stinky “honey vac” )
We discovered that there is Avalon farm producing organic milk we used to buy. I might consider making the extra trip to start buying it again.
Picnic at Robert’s Point, meeting bearded dragon girl while waiting for the ferry, and short ferry ride back to mainland almost ended our adventure. Sara was quite tired, but she bravely rode her big bike. Back on the Golden Ears Bridge I noticed Sara leaning heavily on her bike, J stopped and we could see she was half asleep holding onto the handlebars :)))) Four hours were obviously enough.
I’m sick again, but I doubt that will stop me from going nuts with my to do lists…
I have the constant pressure of no time, I try to look at my day and see where it gets wasted, but there is not much left. We already limit the “family playground time” and usually only J takes Sara after dinner. I take her with me to he garden. My office is just full of misplaced stuff, tools are everywhere, and I just feel like too much stuff is in this house 😉
But that is just my “must be able to move around here” attitude, plus way too much exposure to interior design 🙂
I admit to reclaiming some of our grown up space back. I reorganized Sara’s room and pretty much moved most of her toys back into her kingdom. This way I can close the door if I really don’t want to see that mayhem.
Today is the only sunny dye for this weekend so it is the first of our super bike trips, Barnston Island, I will post map and photos tonight. Time to clean up the kitchen, it’s just endless …
Deception Pass camping
We had a fun weekend at the sea side, Sara was climbing all rocks and drift wood. Our camping equipment will have to be updated. We broke our Canadian 🙂 chair and our tent is getting way too snug. Oh well, no big deal.
We fixed walls near the staircase, it still smells of paint here.
I started fixing the walls in Sara’s room, but found out I have no paint left for the touch ups, so……
I have to find a new paint for my baby’s room. She said red or orange, I said no way…
Now I have a reason to keep looking at Houz.
New road bike is mine 😉
I rode first 25km on my new bike and holy smokes it is different from a MTB. I felt so wobbly on it, but love the speed. This week has been extremely busy and the sun made me really work on the garden. We are now all planted, even thou I might just add some odds and ends in as we go. Our strawberries are almost done blooming and there will be plenty of goodies for Sara to enjoy, I just need to keep up with watering.
First outdoor dinner of this year. And it was lovely.
I managed to spend couple hours in the garden last night and half of the plot is weed free and turned up, now the big second half 😉
The strawberries are in full bloom and there are plenty of them, so let’s hope the sun will keep it up. I picked up some veggie packs from the greenhouse and really need to put them in. There were couple frosty nights last week, but I hope that is in the past and we can look forward to a bountiful harvest. I’m growing several types of zucchini this year and will have bunch of cucumbers too. The raspberry bushes are green and ready to produce, Sara will love it. She actually haven’t tried her new sand box, but today is the day 🙂
I have at least four projects, plus house work, to try to tackle this weekend. It is Mother’s day tomorrow and I want a day to do my stuff ( sewing the slipcover, Sara’s birthday party invitations, fun little calendar project, Abbey’s birthday gift and some sewing for my colleague) so let’s get started…
The summer is here, no more neighbors 😉
It’s late Tuesday night, house is clean and I have diners for the week to plan. Veggie packs are sitting on the deck waiting for the garden to be ready. Well, tomorrow sunshine visits again and the soil should be workable. Sadly all my poor tomatoes on the deck might have gotten too much rain, let’s hope they will recover.
Sara can test the sand box for the for time, the umbrella will go in and I need to attach the cover.
Sara had a great time with grandma and Oreo. Mom is just over the moon with her and Sara really enjoys her company, it is so sweet to see. We have to plan a weekend alone with grandma 🙂
Late night musings about cooking and gardening. Well, tomorrow Sara goes to school and I have some experiments to conduct. One of my colleagues is leaving for a better gig 😉 and I want to bake some goodies to share at lunch on her last day. I also started to search for recipes using coconut flour. It turns out it’s trickier than I thought. Jay challenges me with his no wheat thing 🙂 but I say challenges are good. I just love coconut and gluten free indulgence sounds more than good to me. The new road bike is still not in my garage. The weather is turning better bit by bit and I need to get moving. I need to get the garden going for once. I’m reconsidering the width expansion, but at the same time it is a valuable growing space, so many zucchinis and cucumbers. I can’t miss it, so I just have to take the shovel and brake my back.
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